""How's it going, Janine?"
My FB asked me. I have realized, my 23 years of existence in this world is already approaching yet have I achieved something great and remarkable? It's been three years since I graduated from a good school but I can tell that my future doesn't depend at the school where I graduated for it is still my decision of what I want to become. I'm 22, but I still do not have savings. I have thought that at the age of 25 I should experienced an early retirement because I have big, big, big savings for me to put up a promising business. 26, I should get married to the one I love because my father will be 71... and that my savings will continuously grow and that I will have lots of good investments. I will be able to buy what I want, I have the power to tour my mother and father to see the beauty of life together. The bliss, smile, happiness.Wow, I love to live a life! Wait...
This might be an illusion because we live in a third world country. Yet, I can tell that it is not because of the country where we live, because we still handle our own steering wheel and arrive into the destiny where we want to go. We have to be industrious, and divide our body into three. But all efforts would be nothing if we got the WRONG opportunity. That's why people rather choose to be an OFW to experience financial prosperity yet bringing themselves in peril faraway from their loves.
I have come to think of going abroad too but my parents did not allow me for I am their only child. Sigh, what a lost opportunity to have big income. Big income, yet you are far from your loved ones as well. Sacrifice. Now, March is almost there. Where is the place for fresh graduates in the real world? Is there a job that really awaits them? And to those who has work, when will we finish our job, or the job we have will FINISH us. When it is already 2051 yet you are still like a working ant. Oh my G, I don't want that.
What the! "How's it going, Janine?" have come far. I shouldn't have blog this, should I? Bottom line is, I'll be 23 soon. :("
I thought that beginning is easy but I was wrong. Beginning is always the hardest - great man like Pacquiao, Jobs, Gates, Sy struggle at first too, or even just a baby struggled several times to learn to walk.. the beginning is always the hardest. I was a mistake that I thought I had my beginning this new year. Today, I'll strive harder to have a new beginning. My 22nd birthday and my birthdays that passed were always celebrated happily but now I celebrated my birthday with solitude to reflect because I've been dubious with my future. Let bygones be bygones to help me to move forward. This is my retribution for myself for being negligent for the times that I let it pass that does not contribute to my wellness. I'm going to work now and play later for time is rude, it pass us by unknowingly and uncontrollably.
After talking to myself, I also got the time to talk to my Father, and to your Father as well. I have to talk to the master of life for the complexity of life is eating me. I know by being with Him makes me to have an inner peace in me even if my heart is shouting.
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